The Big Day

So, Ezra's surgery is in a couple hours. The last month has gone by so slowly, not just because I've had the colitis flare-up, but also in anticipation of this G-tube being placed. I have such mixed emotions about it. On one hand, I know that it will be easier on us and Ezra not to have to hassle with the nose tube any more. On the other hand, the G-tube seems so permanent. As if we're giving up on Ezra ever being able to eat independently (as he once did). I see a slow progression backwards instead of forwards. Am I hopeless? NO. Do I want to give up? Sometimes. Do I have faith something will change? Absolutely. We're at a crossroad with this decision, I am sure of that. We're stuck in AZ for a reason. Ezra's purpose here is far more than I could fathom. One thing I know for sure? He is loved...we are loved. By you, yes, but first by Our Heavenly Father! I praise Him for His goodness and His love!

Unfortunately, I am still stuck at home with the flare-up...Peter had to take yet another day off to be with Ezra through the surgery and after. My mom is in town and she will go sit with the little man this afternoon. Evening is the best time for me, so I will be with him tonight. I just hope I don't have any colitis issues!

Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers this morning. Thank you all so much for your love and support!